Waiting for the door to open

It has been a long two weeks of adjusting, and it doesn't seem to be ending any time soon. Sadly my kids are also showing signs of the wear this has had on them. They all have their unique ways of showing it. I just hope that soon we will be able to settle into a little routine and they will settle in.

They went to daycare for two weeks and the driving became too much for us. Tom and I were each driving 50+miles a day and I didn't like how much time this took away from my family. So we switched daycares! I found a wonderful place that I was comfortable to have the girls go to, and my sister was going to watch Chris...

Then the help we were going to have to help with daycare costs... fell through... and when daycare is 60-70% of your income... you need a little help. So now we have been scrambling to find people that are able to help us through this problem. The interesting thing is... once I hopefully start working part time we will be able to get this assistance (I know, it makes no sense) So it is a temporary setback but frustrating.

Sometimes it would be nice not to have to do the one step forward... three steps back dance.

I have the most wonderful family though... and they are supporting us through them. I don't know what we would do without them. Thank you!

I can't wait to be home with my girls (and boy) and be mom again. I pray every night, every car ride, every moment I have to think... that this will all be straightened out in the end... that He would grant me the desire of my heart.... to be with my children more.

I know He has a plan. And it's probably to trust Him even more...

Kiley is back on antibiotics by the way. She ended up with a double ear infection and they wanted to make sure her toe is healing. She just woke up again tonight so I hope it is taking care of the problem. I would like to avoid any future doctor's visits... we've certainly had our share.

Chris goes to his next appointment at the end of June. Hopefully we'll know how he's doing then...I don't know really how he's doing. Most days I've tried to stop analyzing everything and just trust that there will be answers in the end... and that we will know what to do then. I did get the dictation from his visits and oddly this has given me some peace, I like to see the black and white print, read it, read it again, and then sort it away. Perhaps that's from the medical training... or perhaps that's just how I am.

Kara and Abby... please continue stay healthy. :)

Time for bed, church in the morning. I need to lay this snuggly baby down. I'm sorry poor house. I tried to clean you... there just aren't enough hours in the day.