Acute Care

I was up several times in the night with Abby last night, her screaming and crying and pleading with me to hold her hand and sleep with her or get some more water. At one point she even tried to convince me that her diaper was poopy so that I would take her out of the crib. I sat with her for an hour and held her hand before I was so tired I couldn't do it anymore.

She woke up again later that night screaming so I brought her some more pain meds and sat with her and sat with her. I had been up awhile with Kara already and had just gotten her to sleep when Abby woke up. It's really hard to leave your screaming child when you know they don't feel good and they want you. I tried going upstairs and leaving her but it wasn't long and I was back downstairs. At that point I decided if she wanted me to sleep with her that was what we would do or I would never get any sleep. So we slept in the guest bed in the basement. She actually fell asleep fairly fast in my arms....

I took her into Acute Care this afternoon and we spent an hour and a half waiting. It was difficult but she did her best. It's hard to sometimes feel those stares of other parents or people when you can tell they are wondering why you are there and that my child certainly doesn't 'act' sick. But what do they expect a 2 year old to do for that amount of time... even adults go crazy at that point.

She did have a double ear infection and the doctor gave her antibiotic eye drops too because her eyes are mattered and irritated. I really hope that it helps her. I ache that she is feeling sick so often. It was cute though that at one point while we were waiting she told another kid that "That's my mommy, don't you touch her." Makes you feel special that she is a little protective of me too :o)

We got 2 Dora DVD's to use on our car trips and I even found a clearanced Dora sun hat. She was so proud of that hat that she told everyone we passed in Walmart that "I love Dora."

But as we were driving home I heard the song "Lead Me" by Sanctus Real. And it's beautiful... and it brought tears to my eyes because it echoes this feeling in my heart that as a parent I'm struggling so hard to give them the best of me (Motherhood... a perfectionist's nightmare lol) But this chorus struck something in me...

So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I'm called to be
Oh, Father, show me the way
To lead them
Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can't
Don't want to leave them hungry for love,
Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone


It really is a beautiful song and I encourage you to listen to it. Lead Me I hope it touches you as it touched me. 

For some pictures

Sometimes you are a creative mom. And sometimes you pull out a tub. Usually the tub wins by a landslide. These two had so much fun playing together. It must be amazing to go through life with someone like that with you. 

And can you believe these two are 9 months old already?! Wow where does the time fly (Kiley is on the right, Kara on the left in case you were wondering) I wish they enjoyed more of the backyard than just the rocks... 

Not going to lie... I love the photos of them in the car. Abby made sure they had their seatbelts on. It was really cute. (the car doesn't have seat belts so she pretended to buckle them in)

Kiley was very enthusiastic about this whole driving thing... Kara was less inclined. Watch out world here she comes!

Ok... enough of the cute car pictures and onto something else! 

Abby loves to dress up and pretend she is a princess or a super hero. I love both actually. For awhile she was carrying Abby Cadabby's wand and 'poofing' people with it. She put all of this on by herself. She has gotten quite talented about putting on outfits. I think more dress up clothes is in her future. Halloween will be a lot of fun this year :o) 

She might have another ear infection. I probably will try to take her into Acute Care tomorrow. She cried and cried and cried tonight saying her ear hurt and that she needed a bandaid. She also tried putting baby creme into her ear to make it feel better. Not a good sign. I wish we could help her with these things. Poor hun. She has been very busy around here with all of the craziness.

It's been awhile but there was one night she dressed daddy up in a whole bunch of stickers. He was very pretty :) (look how happy she looks)

Well that is enough pictures for one post and it is after midnight here (time for bed!)

Alls well

Surgery went well, the prep for it was very very very difficult. Getting two babies ready for surgery, no matter how minor the surgery... is a lot of work. I wasn't feeling very good  and was really struggling. The nurses were great and helped me by walking Kara up and down the halls. They were both very upset that I wouldn't feed them. The babies... not the nurses lol

Then when I heard Kiley crying because she had woken up from surgery they told me i had to wait in the room because they were holding Kiley and I needed to talk to the doctor. So here I am all worried something had happened and she wasn't doing very well. Why else won't you let the mom see her crying baby? I might have been less nervous but the nurse that had been helping me out was confused too. So that didn't make me feel great that things weren't going as planned for them either.

I'm still not sure why they told me that but it wasn't too long and they finally gave her to me. I felt a little bad that I practically snatched her away from the nurse but I wanted to feed her and comfort her. It's still hard to watch them go back into a room without you to go to sleep. And at that point I was exhausted.

It was a looong morning but I'm thankful for the staff there because they did do their best to make sure that not only my girls were taken care of but that I was doing ok too. The doctor did say that their ears were worse than she thought and so she wants to see them herself for the post-op appointment instead of a nurse visit. They've been bleeding and the gunk has been flowing!

Tom's mom came up last night to help watch Abby and has been helping me around the house with things which is nice :o) I even got a much needed nap when I got home and got the babies to sleep. Since then I've been feeling quite a bit better so I'm hoping that I'll be able to fight off this bug that I seem to have gotten too.

Back to work!

Surgery tomorrow already!

I'm waiting for the surgery lady to call me back... so I thought I would just write a quick update while I waiting.

We spent 2 hours in the ENT office this morning. Long time for me alone with all three girls! Abby actually did pretty well for the most part. At one point while we were waiting in the waiting room she was running from one wall to the other. "I'm running a race mom!" At least she wasn't screaming or being 'naughty'... it was a little funny too.

The ENT was fabulous. That lady knows her stuff! She had this specific technique to look in their ears and was so good with all of them. Even when Abby was dragging the toys all over the room or jumping on the bench. Very down to earth awesome physician. Oh and she knows ears too. Kiley and Kara I guess have really bad ears bilaterally (both ears). She said their ear drums were retracted there was so much fluid back there and scarring from the infections. At one point she told me that if they didn't get tubes they would have constant infections until next SPRING! There is just so much fluid behind the ear drums it's not getting out and just keeps getting infected over and over and over and over again. (Hence the multiple antibiotics)... oh and did I mention they BOTH had them in BOTH ears... hmmm so much for Kiley not having an ear infection. And Kara has been running a temp all day poor baby. I knew she was pulling on those ears good...

She even checked my ears... and said that she could see the subtle signs of damage from ear infections I had as a kid. Funny... I don't remember them, maybe that is a good thing! Maybe thats why I was so cranky :P

Now Abby... here's the real surprise.

REFLUX! They said it's incredibly rare to have a child who had zero ear infections in the first year of life to start having so many now. They also noticed she is a mouth breather. And those of you who noticed that she tends to 'drool' a lot.... reflux is also to blame. Her throat and tonsils were really irritated. So can you believe it causes ear infections too? Which also causes her nose to run and run and run and run... so miss Abby has learned to breathe out of her mouth instead. Which means her mouth is open a whole lot more and that she just ends up drooling especially when she's concentrating. So we are starting her on Reflux meds and going back for a follow up in 6 months or so to check things out. I thought she had outgrown it... guess I didn't know...

So surgery, we get there at 6:30am and I get to take both of them in to get ready. It might be interesting.... they are all napping now and I wish I could lay down! I sure haven't gotten a lot of sleep lately.

ENT tomorrow!

Kiley Kara and Abby have an appointment with the ENT tomorrow morning. Thankfully I was able to get them in a little sooner than Friday. The ear infections must end! At this point I really don't know who has them and who doesn't. All I can say is that all three have green snotty noses, Abby and Kiley are coughing and Kara and Kiley aren't sleeping. But we'll see. Maybe they can at least give me a little advice.

Tom is sick tonight so I'm ready for a healthy house again.

Kara is really trying to walk on her own and can take steps holding on with one hand. Every moment she gets she is trying to do it on her own. I'm trying to convince her that standing on her own might be a good first step. She did manage to stand for a few moments until she toppled forward. Won't be long!

Kiley... could care less. She enjoys cruising along the floor at breakneck speed. She stands along items and walks along them but isn't as daring as Kara is.

I've also noticed that Kara enjoys cruising things along the floor. As in she will take an object in her hand and 'drive' it along the floor. Whether it's a spatula, plastic rolling pin, plastic cow, car... even things that can't drive she tries to push. It's pretty cute.

Both girls are munching well and love to self feed. I found some great snacks for them to eat while I tend to Abby or other house needs. Of course that really only works with Kara because Kiley loves to escape the highchair. In fact she will escape even with a 'seatbelt'... so I have to be extra vigilante with her.

Abby is as busy as ever. She has a touch of the tummy bug too so that never helps. We played outside for awhile today when K&K were napping. She really liked playing on the swings and bars with me. She loves getting under dogs and trying to touch the clouds with her toes. Of course "clouds are yucky, don't eat the clouds mommy." Ok Abby... I won't eat the clouds :o)

All three of us took an hour long walk around town today, we played in the park too near the school. Abby loved the bouncy horse. Well it's time for some sleep before my next baby shift begins... I have some pictures and videos I would to post but need to fix my computer so I can upload them. Maybe eventually...