Just an update

I'm pretty tired and a little sick so if this post doesnt make sense I'm sorry but I'm too tired to read through it twice. The weekend is over and what fun we had! It was such an emotional release to have family over and distracting me and taking care of things around the house. We got so many things done!!! After the last few days I really needed the reminder that life still goes on, and how many people are pulling for us! If you didn't know my latest struggle has been about whether I should continue with nursing school or not. This is what it came down to....

Staying meant graduating sooner, and essentially having a better paying job. (and finishing with the friends I had made)

Stepping out would mean less stress for this pregnancy and less on my body...hopefully the babies staying put where they are a little longer...

So you can see that in the end it really wasn't as hard of a decision as I thought it was going to be. I need to do this for my babies. I'm a mother and I could never forgive myself if something happened to my girls because I put my 'career' ahead of them. I'm hoping to take classes online towards a minor in either Health Administration or Psychology just to feel like I'm still working towards something and to keep my student loans at bay a little longer. Hopefully I can talk with my advisor soon and get this all straightened out.

It's still not going to be easy, I'm going to miss my friends and I really do have a passion for nursing. Not to mention that I have a hard time staying ... put. Thankfully I'm not on full bedrest or I'd be really in trouble! But this is what I feel the Lord is leading me to do right now and even though I've been trying to pry open the door He's closed I think I finally get it....

Tomorrow morning I have an appointment with Dr H to check my cervix and make sure things are staying put. I'm hoping that it has! I'm also hoping that this nasty cold/bug that I've picked up will be finished by tomorrow. This has just been miserable for both Abby and I. Well I need to get some sleep, the last few nights I've been sleeping awful. I'll report what we hear from the Dr tomorrow, then our next appointment is a week later. Night!