Midnight Musings...

Kara fell asleep holding my finger tonight, and Kiley is snoring as she sleeps in my lap. I know that I should be getting cozy under the blankets and drifting off to dreamland myself but I've discovered that if I don't write before bed, there is a good chance I won't write at all. Currently I'm at Tom's parent's place... yes we managed to drive down to their place safely. There were a few hairy moments but we made it down safely. I drove carefully and we took our time... but my hands were still stiff from the strain/stress of it. (it's just scary when everything is white!)

Christmas... as always was wonderful here again. I cannot even begin to describe the generosity that has been displayed to us this year. God has truly blessed us with beautiful, wonderful families. They have supported us through so much. Simple gestures like flowers or gift cards to Subway that meant so much... to babysitting and gifts ... but most of all their love and prayers sent heavenward. I remember those first moments when we found out I was pregnant with twins... thinking "God doesn't give us more than we can handle, and that if He gave us this gift... He will also provide us with everything we need." Now 10-11 months later... how true this has been!

*Sigh* the twins are up again... and I'm exhausted. I've come to absolutely dread nights... nothing about them is relaxing and usually I have to spend them alone. Tom has recently taken up sleeping on the couch for both our sakes. This way the babies can sleep in the bed with me and I can still have room to sleep when I can. Plus once in awhile they actually sleep pretty good when they are near me. The biggest downside is that I don't get to sleep with my husband and I have the twins all to myself. Not that he can help me at night anyways since I'm breastfeeding. But it gets lonely... and I miss feeling close to Tom. I haven't seen him much these last few days and it's been a little hard. The car ride down here was the longest I've had him to myself in a week.

We are in desperate need of more gumdrop pacifiers. The worst part is that they don't sell them in stores, only online so I had to order some and it will take awhile to get here.They are the only ones that Kiley & Kara will take with any success. And we have ONE. So right now I have to take the pacifier and give it to whomever needs it most. Like right now Kiley is screaming so I'm trying to get her to take it... with very little luck I might add. I'm so frustrated. Now they are both awake. :( Doesnt look like I'll be getting to bed anytime soon.....