It was the best of days, It was the worst of days... or just another day with twins

Zero signs of the girls going to sleep outside their angry cries. I KNOW this means that they are tired and want to go to sleep but so far they are resisting the urge of shutting their eyes. I'm not sure if they want to be nursed to sleep and are punishing me for not? (I gave the Prevacid a little late and they can't eat for 30 minuets) So... really it's no one's fault but my own.

I'm just tired today... tired tired tired tired. Getting up at 5am after going to bed at 12am, up at 3, 4, and 5 then out of bed at 5:30. (I remembered I had a homework assignment to do that was a lot of work) AND the best part is my professor DELAYED the time it is due until tomorrow... but added more stipulations to the assignment. So now I'm faced with the dilemma of... do I... after working on it from 5:30am-9:00am this morning... do it over again because of a few details that might be missed. Honestly- I hate the class, I hate the professor's inability to be organized and I could care less. The old responsible perfectionist me says "How dare you even think like that?! Do it again!" But I'm tired.

*sigh* I can't even win a battle with myself.

Abby was clingy today. We went to my brother's college track meet this afternoon. It was fun to go see him run in an event like that (Wow they are all sticks-nothing but skin and bone). I thought MAYBE the twins would have a hard time with the commotion and activity and gun shots. Noooo Abby did. She just couldn't handle it. Anytime I was even remotely out of sight she freaked out. There were several points where I had Kiley in the Beco and Abby hanging off of my hip. She refused even to have my sister, dad or mom hold her much. Now if you know Abs... this is very atypical. Even my mom commented on it. Eventually I put her in the Beco (yes it can hold her.) I tried to wear her on my back but she wanted me to hold her. So I put her in front where she could wrap her arms around me. I'm sure I looked like quite the spectacle to these college kids. Two babies nearby and a toddler hanging off of me in a carrier...

We decided to go home.

Abs had a kids meal  from Hardees and drank more punch than ate food despite my best efforts otherwise. I had fed Kiley and Kara before we ate there but they both proceeded to scream most of the way home. I was also trying to keep Abby awake because she was now sleepy. It was one of the longest one hour drives ever. Talk about distractions. Part of me was preparing the speech I would give the cop if I got pulled over for speeding..... yeah probably not the best thing...

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Ok I'll try to post more positively from here on. Tom bought me a new camera for V-Day. Though I have a suspicion he would have gotten it for me even if this Sunday wasn't V-Day. I am so in love with it... it takes amazing pictures and I have so much fun. The price was a little high (though great for this caliber of camera.) There is a special printer I'm hoping Tom can sell so that we can get back a little money. But... it is worth it. I will use it and use it and use it. Look at the beautiful images I was able to capture because of it!

I just picked up Kara to try and nurse her to sleep. She took a drink and now she is staring up at me and just smiling away. It is one of those moments that just steals your heart... and at the same time is immensely frustrating. You goof! Go to sleep! Kiley is fussing next door (in the bassinet) because she is jealous. Jealous? Yes jealous. This happens frequently. One is held, the other wants to be held. If they are both in the nursery they are fine, the moment I take one of them out the other is fussing. Of course this could be the works of the mysterious twin bond. I guess we'll never know...

I love my girls...