I dont like 'just surviving.' I feel like there are a million and one things that I should be doing or could be doing when all I really want is to crawl into bed, and go to sleep. The hardest things are those things I feel like I should be doing for the girls. With Abby I had a calendar where I wrote down little milestones as she got older (it's really full) and I feel awful that the babies are almost 7 weeks old and I haven't even BOUGHT their calendars. Because I KNOW that they will ask me someday why they don't have one...and I want to mark their babyhood/first year like I did Abby's... their babytime is just as special to me. Hopefully I can get them soon.
Poor little ones are so worn out. We went to my Grandma's house on my Dad's side for a Christmas. It was a lot of fun and Abby did really well considering she didn't get a nap until we came home at 4:30... she was practically begging for us to let her go to sleep. She got a Little Tykes crib and kitchenette (old school kind, like what was around when I was a little girl) Abby and her 3 year old cousin had a lot of fun playing with it. She even tried to give her new baby doll a bath in the kitchen's sink! Then she crawled into the crib and held her baby. :) Tom got some more work clothes and I got 2 more coffee mugs (backups!) coffee, gloves and a giftcard to Target. The leftover pork roast is going to make a great lunch too.
We spent New Years Eve at my mom's house. It was really relaxing. We had a Prime Rib dinner and then my sister and I just spent some time watching HGTV while I took care of babies. Abby had fun taking a bath... she likes bubbles.... alot... Maybe I'm getting old, or maybe it's just because I have so many other things going on, but the countdown to the new year wasn't a very big deal to me. Perhaps I just value sleep more right now... but in any matter looking back on 2009 it's amazing how much has changed. I never would have believed we would have experienced the pregnancy, birth and infanthood of our twin girls.... and watching Abby grow and develop and learn has also been amazing. Even when things are overwhelming I'm so grateful I was given the opportunity to be their mom... My appointment with my OB was pretty uneventful... Dr H and my favorite nurse just looooved the babies. They thought they were so beautiful! Dr. H was also very impressed that I have been able to nurse them exclusively... she said i was the first twin mommy of her patients to be able to do that! They were also impressed that I am able to handle all three girls alone, and that Abby doesn't go to a daycare. It's nice to hear those compliments sometimes... I keep them in my 'arsenal' when I start to feel like I'm not a good mom, or that I can't handle it... I also got my thyroid levels checked... I suppose I'll find out Monday if I need to change my dosage.
Well the girls are 'almost' asleep... maybe... and I should try and get some sleep myself if they are going down. Tom is bravely attempting to sleep in our bed tonight, we'll see if he gets any sleep. At least he can sleep through their crying! Kara is cuddling with Dad.... I hope I can steal her away and put her in the bassinette without her waking! Goodnight!
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Happy New Year! I wouldn't worry so much about the baby book/calendar stuff. Just record their development here on your blog. You can make it into a book or go back and "fake" a calendar. ;) Just back it up once in awhile.
I think it would be fascinating to see what my mother was thinking, instead of just little snippets here and there about my development.
Happy New Year ! I think all of us mom's go through the thought of being a bad mom. I know I have. I really think that is just Satan telling us that. Don't worry about the cal. ,but if it is something you really want to do do it. I think your girls will understand as they get older that you were a VERY busy mommy. I remmember my sister Becky saying to me when I was feeling over whelemed at times. "There is a Season for eveything". So don't get discouraged because you feel you want to do something ,even if it is for the girl. In time everything will work out. At this time try to enjoy your kids! Plus get some sleep too! :) You are doing great ! :) Kristy
Brianna, I know what you mean about just surviving sometimes. I felt that way a lot during and after our hospital stay last winter. But as the previous poster mentioned, this is just one season in life. Some seasons are exhausting, and it's hard to do much of anything than just get by. But they pass, and living life to the fullest WILL come back again! I'll be praying that you are refreshed and renewed in the coming days.
Christine
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