5am wake up call

Well we need to be at the hospital tomorrow morning at 6:45am for Abby's surgery. Another early morning! Nothing like waking up on your day off at 5am. But hopefully this will help her to start feeling better. She was really having a rough day today and missed her mommy. I guess she cried a lot and was just out of sorts. Poor thing I could tell she wasn't feeling very good when I got home. She just rocked for awhile with me in the rocking chair, didn't want to go outside to play and later colored in her princess coloring book. It has been tough being away from the girls so much this week and they certainly want me a lot when I get home.

Isn't she gorgeous. I love when I can actually capture a shot with her looking at me.

Kara is being a dare devil and likes to climb up onto the bouncy zebra and then stand on top of it. We have even caught her balancing on one foot on top of it. Such a silly girl! My mother in law has a picture of her up on top of it but I don't have it on my computer. I will have to share later though because it is too funny.

Kiley is standing unassisted now! Where did my babies go? Kara is also doing it and trying to take steps but generally sinks down to the floor. They think it is absolutely wonderful and get so excited they tip over. They are getting really close to sleeping through the night now. Kiley generally wakes up around 3am and Kara will get up around 5am.

Well.... sadly I need to go to bed and get some sleep. I slept hard last night as school has been busy.

ZZZZZZ tired!

Blog? What blog...

Good grief I've been just drowning in school and sick babies and homework and housework... is that enough? Lol and I'm sick with some nasty cold like thing now too. Probably because of all of the above. But finally I've come back to write down a few things that have been going on.

Kara is just steps away from taking her first step (clever eh?)... She can stand on her own and is really thinking about taking that first step. The moment she decides she will do it! She is also really starting to babble and I'm pretty sure she is calling me mommamommamomma and will chase me down saying it. So cute :o)

Kiley has been lately waylaid by the nasty bug she has had since Thursday night. The fever started then and has been going on since. She is so miserable and has been hitting temps like 104 easily. I took her to Acute Care but the doctor was awful and barely looked at her. She just said... oh history of ear infections. Here is an antibiotic that I won't explain to you. UGH

Abby is in full fleged princess mode and refuses to wear anything but dresses. SO cute. She loves anything princess related and I swear we have watched Cinderella like 20 times in the last few weeks. She also really loves her hair right now and wants to have pretties put into it.

... but I'm tired and sick like so should hit the sack. Have a good night hope to see you sooner next time!

I'm tired

Abby is scheduled to have tubes placed, allergy testing and possible adenoid removal. Kiley and Kara are to be seen in two weeks again for a recheck of their ears as their is still quite a bit of fluidy gunk behind their eardrums. It has been an overwhelming week... this battle is not easy to win it seems.

Today I feel like throwing in the towel. A few other things are stressing me out and I feel so stretched and disheartened. Getting up at 6am and being up with the girls so much probably isn't helping much. I'm sure tomorrow will be better. At least I didn't find a spider in my mouth from my coffee today...

Finding the time to Post

Can you tell? I'm struggling to find the time to post right now. And to be fair it isn't like I'm not busy. School is in full swing and the girls and housework keep me hopping. We returned from vacation the other day and I feel so scattered with everything! Hopefully things will fall back in order soon.

Kiley and Kara are growing up so fast! They clap their little hands and are trying so hard to stand on their own. When I sing "If you are happy and you know it" They get so excited and clap and clap. They are also starting to recognize their names now and when they are in trouble. Once on vacation when Grandpa L told them they needed to go to bed Kara buried her head into my shoulder and started crying. It was so funny.

I have really noticed that Kara is a little more shy in certain situations and needs more time to feel confident in her surroundings. She will want to be held longer (or the whole time) and if you aren't holding her she wants to be next to you at all times.


They are starting to sleep a little better but have had these nasty colds with coughing and runny noses so I think that wakes them more then they would normally. At least no ear infections for them! Well... I should say the doctors thought Kara had one while we were on vacation because she had greenish yellow drainage from her ear. But a few good drops and that took care of it thankfully.

Abby on the other hand hasn't been so lucky. Since her last ENT visit she has had two more double ear infections. She woke up the other night screaming owie owie owie and has a runny nose. It's hard to believe that the powerful ZPAC wouldn't have killed her infection... we have an appointment on Tuesday so we'll see what they say.

The vacation with Tom's family was so much fun though even if it was difficult at times and exhausting. There will be many special memories to cherish. I promise that I will write a post here soon so that the girls can read about it someday.

Abby loves dressing up like a princess even if it is just a sun dress. I also got her 22 'new' dolls from Ebay that have clothes and shoes and accessories. She loves to play with them and even bribed daddy into playing with her. I found her a princess backpack on clearance that all of her little dolls will ride around in with her.

We watched my brother run in a Cross Country meet the other day. He did so well! He has worked really hard so it is fun to watch him compete. It was hard that the weather was cold (38 degrees) and the girls weren't thrilled with that. Abby was a little weepy.

Football

So this isn't about my girls... and I know we are all due for an update on how the weekend and road trip went. I promise I'll try to find some time this afternoon to check it out. For now I had to write a bit about one of my brothers. I took this picture of him the other night and I thought it embodied the typical Senior Football player. Guys... they don't smile, they don't look 'cute' or happy... they are supposed to look cool and macho ... and like a football player.

You probably can't tell by the picture. But he has a 'boot' on his foot from a football accident that occurred a few weeks back during football practice. It was his senior year and all of that hard work and devotion was shattered in one unfortunate event. So... while I was working on senior photos with him it was a given that we did a few football shots despite the fact he won't be able to play this year.

I still feel a little bad for him... it must be tough to have to sit out knowing that was your last year to play. But that's life... things happen. I've been impressed with his attitude about it. And boy I've learned... it's hard to do senior pictures when you are dealing with crutches. Things are just a lot more work.

Still I wanted to share the photo of him. Because I thought it embodied his spirit so well... and yes I do have ones of him smiling too :o)

We all need a little laughter.

As I was browsing craigslist a little to see what wonderfully overpriced materials people were trying to scam me with. I ran across a multiples website selling things for multiples.


Exhibit #1 Twin High Chair

That's right... it's a 'twin' highchair. Forget chairs all you really need is a table, with two holes cut out of it... so that you could dangle your children in the center. I love sitting in the middle of a table don't you?


Exhibit #2 Twin Carrier

Just in case one baby isn't enough you can strap this nifty device onto your back and your favorite dolly can go for a ride along with you. Doesn't this look comfortable? I have to admit things are so much easier to do 'hands free' with two babies or 1 baby and a hunk of plastic strapped to my chest. It will only run you about 130 dollars.... So... is the doll included?

Exhibit #3 Comfort Labor Pillow

I'll let this little number explain itself.

"COMFORT, POSITION, RELAX, CALM

Wow, what this little silkie pregnancy pillow can do. Perfect for unlimited positioning, hugging, stroking, and squeezing.."

I'll give Tom credit with this response.... "Is this a 'having baby' pillow or 'making a baby' pillow"

And finally..... the Triplet Carrier....

The pack horse look is in style right now

Hope you enjoyed... I sure did.

Q-wik Update

I took Kiley and Kara into the ENT today. When I called them to ask about the mattery things around their eyes and the snotty noses + frequent waking at night they told me they wanted to see them. So I drove down quick after class, picked them up and headed in.

My dr was off but we saw another great guy and he said that there was still fluid back behind the ear drums that needed to drain. He gave me another type of drop that I need to get into their ears 2x daily and... I found out the tubes are waterproof ... aka drop proof. So I need to insert the drops a certain way to get them in. Yay more drops!

His thoughts on the night wakings makes sense to me too. He told me that the level of fluid in their ears prior to the tubes was bordering zero hearing *YIKES!* that there was a chance they weren't hearing a thing. So... if you think about it, they might have been sleeping through their sister's little movements not because they were accustomed to their sister... but because they couldn't hear a thing! So it might take awhile for them to adjust to the fact that they can hear things again.

And I doubt it helps that they are also teething.

At the zoo

Monday ... you guessed it. We went to the zoo. I decided after mid-afternoon naps that we were all going to go out and do something fun with my last unofficial day of summer before I started school. But was I crazy taking all three girls alone? To the zoo?

We had pretty much free reign of the zoo and it was fantastic. Abby was able to run around and look at whatever animals she wanted without me needing to worry that someone would snatch her. As long as I could see her she was free.

There was a beautiful baby giraffe and I think that she was as enamored with it as I was. Look at how cute it is! (sorry it's really small in the picture... but that little stick thing is a giraffe) 

She enjoyed climbing the fences to look at the animals. The turtle's over..... there!

She loved the baby goats and they loved her shirt!

It was a beautiful day and the girls all did so well. Abby listened and loved looking at all of the animals. It was funny I tried to get some water from a vending machine but they were all out. So I got an orange soda. Abby really liked it but I'd only let her have a little at a time. So SHE decided she was getting her own and kept pushing all of the buttons trying to figure it out. Now every time she sees a vending machine she tries to get a pop out :o)

Poor Kiley and Kara spent most of the time in the stroller drinking their bottles. They liked watching Abby run all over though. This is how Abby rides on the front of the stroller when we go places. It works really well actually! Well except for that one time... but otherwise great!

She loves ducks... this was her favorite place after the baby goats. At least the ducks don't eat her clothes...

School Ramblings

My last day of summer vacation, and then it is off to my last last last year of school... did I mention it is my last? My last first day, last day of orientation... I'm ready! I'm ready to put that chapter of my life behind me and struggle with trying to comprehend how I will manage to get through this semester with 3 kids 2 and under... all of whom rely on me in a very big way. I'm also just a little sad that the routine will change, that I won't be home with them as much... and I'm also a little afraid that they won't want me as much anymore...

Isn't that strange? That I worry they won't want me and will want my mom more? Hundreds of thousands of kids go to daycare everyday why should my girls be any different?

Because I struggled with that already once before. With Abby... I knew and felt and sensed that she wasn't attached to me around 10 months-15 months. (around the time the hair pulling got bad) She didn't come to me when she was hurt (and that hurt a lot) and just sorta did her own thing. She never wanted 'mommy.' No matter how I tried I felt like something wasn't right and I blamed myself for being gone with school.... I cried a lot about that. And I didn't really tell anyone either because I was ashamed.

 And now look at how much progress we have made, she wants me to hold her and kiss her owies and hold her hand at night when she is scared. She likes playing baseball with me and building sandcastles, coloring, or making muffins. I feel special to her and loved and like HER mom... ("don't you touch her" lol) And even if it is irrational and crazy and I know in my head that there were other issues going on that prevented her from 'attaching' to me those months... my heart is shaking in it's boots that once I get back to school it will start all over again. I'm afraid that if she's away from me too long she'll forget about me.

But she'll be ok... I'll be ok... We'll be ok.

Acute Care

I was up several times in the night with Abby last night, her screaming and crying and pleading with me to hold her hand and sleep with her or get some more water. At one point she even tried to convince me that her diaper was poopy so that I would take her out of the crib. I sat with her for an hour and held her hand before I was so tired I couldn't do it anymore.

She woke up again later that night screaming so I brought her some more pain meds and sat with her and sat with her. I had been up awhile with Kara already and had just gotten her to sleep when Abby woke up. It's really hard to leave your screaming child when you know they don't feel good and they want you. I tried going upstairs and leaving her but it wasn't long and I was back downstairs. At that point I decided if she wanted me to sleep with her that was what we would do or I would never get any sleep. So we slept in the guest bed in the basement. She actually fell asleep fairly fast in my arms....

I took her into Acute Care this afternoon and we spent an hour and a half waiting. It was difficult but she did her best. It's hard to sometimes feel those stares of other parents or people when you can tell they are wondering why you are there and that my child certainly doesn't 'act' sick. But what do they expect a 2 year old to do for that amount of time... even adults go crazy at that point.

She did have a double ear infection and the doctor gave her antibiotic eye drops too because her eyes are mattered and irritated. I really hope that it helps her. I ache that she is feeling sick so often. It was cute though that at one point while we were waiting she told another kid that "That's my mommy, don't you touch her." Makes you feel special that she is a little protective of me too :o)

We got 2 Dora DVD's to use on our car trips and I even found a clearanced Dora sun hat. She was so proud of that hat that she told everyone we passed in Walmart that "I love Dora."

But as we were driving home I heard the song "Lead Me" by Sanctus Real. And it's beautiful... and it brought tears to my eyes because it echoes this feeling in my heart that as a parent I'm struggling so hard to give them the best of me (Motherhood... a perfectionist's nightmare lol) But this chorus struck something in me...

So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I'm called to be
Oh, Father, show me the way
To lead them
Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can't
Don't want to leave them hungry for love,
Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone


It really is a beautiful song and I encourage you to listen to it. Lead Me I hope it touches you as it touched me.